I hover over these empty bottles.
I hesitate to throw anythign away
who knows when brown glass will be
useful in the furture, when I'll
next need a plastic cap in a matter
that's worth a life, worth a death,
worth a second sight more than a
misrable end in a pile of fetid sludge
and it's lack of concievable use extends,
cursing both throwee and thrower.
I ask for too much but I do say please.
I hold your hand when I ask you to jump.
I shoot you up with morphine if I need to
slit you open. You make that face that's shut,
dragging me away from the lip of the edge of the
brink like I should thank you. So I thank you.
I ask for too much but I do say please.
Today I witnessed a catastrophe;
melodious as it was discordant
symmetrical as it was unbalanced
enlightening as it was frightening
and in that moment I thought
that we all belong to a hurricane
twisting somewhere
leaving twisted
depositing entire trees on
cracked asphalt driveways
child eyes gape
God help them
it will never stop
I'm struck by you as a spaceship by speeding particulates.
the seemingly small amount of force
small amount of matter
doesn't matter
cabin pressure is comprimised
abort mission
abort abort abort
oh please not now not like like this
Do you believe in a infinite universe?
somewhere I'm space walking with you
You wrote me a letter?
I'll write you a tome.
I write for hours, days.
I bear the weight
a fifty mile radius wince
cracking bones splintered ribs
iron blood rent liver
colour greying streets.
Suffer its heat
blood boils to vapour.
Water fills my lungs
air fills my heart
crushingly suffocatingly intoxicating
(i took fear to be an appropriate response)
i used to be the girl scrabbling for purchase on a rockface smeared with-
but no, perhaps i was the embarassing whimper from the back of the room. you know, the girl that everyone turns to look at when they know they shouldn't 'cos her nose is running and she hasn't got a tissue and no one knows what the hell's wrong anyway
stop it, don't embarass her
or, nah, maybe the lilac stripe in the guest bedroom, the blue tiling in the downstairs bathroom, the pot plant in the hall way; drooping and forlorn, remembered only when its gasping cries for water, my chlorophyll for just a little muddy water become a little too cutting
or maybe i was jus
when you're hors ligne blood to follicle misses
your wit and your banter; your electronic kisses. can't
take this apart and examine components. it is easy, yet
complex; so fucking ironic. i call time statuesque as i
watch it streak by. break neck speed (super sonic!),
rips the tears from each eye. before my neck snaps or
bones start to crumble, i'll give it a chance, now i've
learned to be humble. my symptoms are chronic, but my
heart, it was weak, but by virtual presence it is back on
its feet. i taught it the rythym, but you made up a tune.
so for you, mother fucker, i would fly to moon. i'd swim
across oceans, tranverse al
heavy, sweet, slightly putrid scent.
ripe fruit in the air. it may be what
we call mango but she doesn't care;
it is friends with the tongue.
it is soft on her teeth, her whitewash molars.
it is chalky sweet.
the grass under foot is so green
the flowers are so yellow
the sky is so blue.
who could ever ask for more?
she could. more and more and
more onto wanton destruction
of herself, others, the extinction
of several species of exotic bird,
the wastage of all our global
resources. you see our snakey
friend was merely the grain of
dust that made the camel need
that veterbrae replacement surgery.
she was not down with
i remember the day i accidentally pushed you
out of the second floor bedroom window.
it was my twin siblings' bedroom. they had bunks;
my brother leaned too far and took a tumble too.
everyone laughed at that though. it was only about
half a meter and he didn't fall into a thorn bush. i mean,
the carpeting was scratchy - like sitting on dried grass.
but still, inerasable like felt tip on pristine wallpaper,
is your form, leaning away from me and plummeting
toward the scary ground. indelible is the fear, the
bellowed thought, that i have killed my cousin. i wish
i could scrub away the nightmares of mangled limbs
and locked doors e
Fingers on skin, wrongfully poised.
It's a playful drag along lacy tights
and a sieved giggle, a little shrinking
back. Maybe sticking things where
they aren't wanted. Shh, I never
told you that. But I digress. On her.
Who is she to complain? A pleasant sin;
Make sure you flash that grin when he sighs
serpentinely into your quivering cochlear.
And never forget to shake that money maker.
She thinks it's wrongly named. Perhaps trouble
bringer or sanity quaker would be a tad more
appropriate. You know, despite everything,
despite the roaring highs and acerbic lows
and the spot in the middle where that feeling
grows she
I hover over these empty bottles.
I hesitate to throw anythign away
who knows when brown glass will be
useful in the furture, when I'll
next need a plastic cap in a matter
that's worth a life, worth a death,
worth a second sight more than a
misrable end in a pile of fetid sludge
and it's lack of concievable use extends,
cursing both throwee and thrower.
I ask for too much but I do say please.
I hold your hand when I ask you to jump.
I shoot you up with morphine if I need to
slit you open. You make that face that's shut,
dragging me away from the lip of the edge of the
brink like I should thank you. So I thank you.
I ask for too much but I do say please.
Today I witnessed a catastrophe;
melodious as it was discordant
symmetrical as it was unbalanced
enlightening as it was frightening
and in that moment I thought
that we all belong to a hurricane
twisting somewhere
leaving twisted
depositing entire trees on
cracked asphalt driveways
child eyes gape
God help them
it will never stop
I'm struck by you as a spaceship by speeding particulates.
the seemingly small amount of force
small amount of matter
doesn't matter
cabin pressure is comprimised
abort mission
abort abort abort
oh please not now not like like this
Do you believe in a infinite universe?
somewhere I'm space walking with you
You wrote me a letter?
I'll write you a tome.
I write for hours, days.
I bear the weight
a fifty mile radius wince
cracking bones splintered ribs
iron blood rent liver
colour greying streets.
Suffer its heat
blood boils to vapour.
Water fills my lungs
air fills my heart
crushingly suffocatingly intoxicating
(i took fear to be an appropriate response)
i used to be the girl scrabbling for purchase on a rockface smeared with-
but no, perhaps i was the embarassing whimper from the back of the room. you know, the girl that everyone turns to look at when they know they shouldn't 'cos her nose is running and she hasn't got a tissue and no one knows what the hell's wrong anyway
stop it, don't embarass her
or, nah, maybe the lilac stripe in the guest bedroom, the blue tiling in the downstairs bathroom, the pot plant in the hall way; drooping and forlorn, remembered only when its gasping cries for water, my chlorophyll for just a little muddy water become a little too cutting
or maybe i was jus
when you're hors ligne blood to follicle misses
your wit and your banter; your electronic kisses. can't
take this apart and examine components. it is easy, yet
complex; so fucking ironic. i call time statuesque as i
watch it streak by. break neck speed (super sonic!),
rips the tears from each eye. before my neck snaps or
bones start to crumble, i'll give it a chance, now i've
learned to be humble. my symptoms are chronic, but my
heart, it was weak, but by virtual presence it is back on
its feet. i taught it the rythym, but you made up a tune.
so for you, mother fucker, i would fly to moon. i'd swim
across oceans, tranverse al
heavy, sweet, slightly putrid scent.
ripe fruit in the air. it may be what
we call mango but she doesn't care;
it is friends with the tongue.
it is soft on her teeth, her whitewash molars.
it is chalky sweet.
the grass under foot is so green
the flowers are so yellow
the sky is so blue.
who could ever ask for more?
she could. more and more and
more onto wanton destruction
of herself, others, the extinction
of several species of exotic bird,
the wastage of all our global
resources. you see our snakey
friend was merely the grain of
dust that made the camel need
that veterbrae replacement surgery.
she was not down with
i remember the day i accidentally pushed you
out of the second floor bedroom window.
it was my twin siblings' bedroom. they had bunks;
my brother leaned too far and took a tumble too.
everyone laughed at that though. it was only about
half a meter and he didn't fall into a thorn bush. i mean,
the carpeting was scratchy - like sitting on dried grass.
but still, inerasable like felt tip on pristine wallpaper,
is your form, leaning away from me and plummeting
toward the scary ground. indelible is the fear, the
bellowed thought, that i have killed my cousin. i wish
i could scrub away the nightmares of mangled limbs
and locked doors e
Fingers on skin, wrongfully poised.
It's a playful drag along lacy tights
and a sieved giggle, a little shrinking
back. Maybe sticking things where
they aren't wanted. Shh, I never
told you that. But I digress. On her.
Who is she to complain? A pleasant sin;
Make sure you flash that grin when he sighs
serpentinely into your quivering cochlear.
And never forget to shake that money maker.
She thinks it's wrongly named. Perhaps trouble
bringer or sanity quaker would be a tad more
appropriate. You know, despite everything,
despite the roaring highs and acerbic lows
and the spot in the middle where that feeling
grows she
it was all bones that day--
stripped down to nothing but calcium and marrow,
we couldn't even drink lemonade
without it burning out our intimacy.
we are so different,
you with your sky-eyes and
me with my earth-eyes,
you with your seabourne heart
and me with only my bones.
we
share
secrets
on
your
seashore--
like how what i hate the most
is that i pushed you out of
my entire imagination
that day,
no room for the weary
in rot-eaten boats
where nobody sings.
[i still write you letters--]
skitters as if on snow.
she can sometimes sense
her muscles tense,
and then, her bones, disjointed, realign.
she reaches up
and tries to touch,
but just can't find the strength to feel the sun.
frostbitten lips
under fingertips;
she can't distinguish these from fragile face.
sympathy, antipathy,
empathy and apathy:
what is this strange disease beneath her skin?
you were never one for shakespeare's iambic pentameter,
so you nixed the meter and measure the gods composed
and wrote your own sonnet in time with the beat of your heart
and the shiver of your tapered spine.
instead of crisp and company issued egg shell paper,
you dragged the pen you bought yourself back in sixth grade
across the smooth canvas of tanned skin, littered with sunset bruises
and did not mind the clashing of colours.
you always wondered if it were true what the newsstands said,
that art flutters to life when misery takes shape
but you never really believed such nonsense,
until your spine shattered, your inkwell ran dr
[What the stars tossed, salt-casual, onto the not-black of the not-night suggest could be love, but I can't read them.]
This is not a love poem,
not-love, a not-love poem.
Falling waist deep into February
stomping the signatures of lost years
in footprints on the pristine present-
this, not-night has become electric
with memories smashing through
the thin ice of teenage alchemy,
charged, with the possibility of
heartache,
frostbite,
or even
i am in love with a silhouette.
it changes shape at its whim.
yesterday it was a jellyfish.
the day before it was a cat.
tomorrow it will be a man.
i am in love with a silhouette.
i'm half in love with the puppeteer.
his deft fingers allow the wonderful
shapes to appear in all their shadowy
glory before me; it's only fair.
i am in love with a silhouette.
i anticipate the day he will propose to
me, with an antique opal that glistens,
milky white in light with rainbows. it
was his grandmother's joy.
i am in love with a silhouette.
he is in love with me. forever.
so i still scream a little when
the lights go out and
the
firstly a huge thankoo to Critique-It (https://www.deviantart.com/critique-it) and in particular KneelingGlory (https://www.deviantart.com/kneelingglory) for my supah sexy 3 month sub!
but other stuff too.
i appear to have some creative juice flowing in my veins again, and i feel like writing.
:D
secondly, things seem to be going well on the boy front, but i may be counting chickens before they are hatched.
thirdly, my exams are nearly over (cruching panic about exams, but at least that's a tad delayed :/)
and lots of followers on tumblr! i'm well proud of 69.
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but yey, i love life.
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i'm in love with tumblr.
am i the only one?
but i'm neglecting my poems due to exams and a lack of inspiration.
hopefully this shall be allievated soon.
x
Haha so you asked about a picture of me LONG ago. Yeah no, to get the ceiling effect I actually set up a thing for my camera to hang on using several strings x]. Selftimer later. and whalah a base for editing ;D